Friday, August 22, 2014

I Hate...




I hate that I can't write.

I hate that what I write I don't love.

I hate that I love what I can't or shouldn't love.

I hate that I 'should' myself.

I hate myself for worrying too much.

I hate that I worry about what others think.

I hate that I think too much and become incapacitated.

I hate that I incapacitate myself with thoughts of negative outcomes.

I hate negative thoughts that become self-fulfilling prophecies.

I hate that I'm right.

I hate that I'm wrong.

I hate that my life feels constipated at times.

I hate those times when I hate.

But I love the kind of Hate that's pregnant with fire and creativity.

I love that this hating opened me up today.

Today, flow is possible.

Possibility is to be loved.



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  1. ScrollworkAugust 22, 2014 at 11:14 AM

    Ooh! Me likey. A nice departure from what we're used to.

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    1. Joy Page ManuelAugust 22, 2014 at 4:31 PM

      Thanks Cookie! That's what happens when I want to blow up my computer! lol!

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  2. UnknownAugust 22, 2014 at 12:44 PM

    Talk about honesty, Joy! That was beautiful...so raw and so hopeful. I'm glad it ended well for you. Keep it going...it will only result in more beauty once you crack through the other stuff.

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    1. Joy Page ManuelAugust 22, 2014 at 4:32 PM

      I'm going to keep trying to crack things open, Kelly. Hopefully it'll happen sooner than later. Thanks so much and glad you enjoyed 'the hating'. ;-))

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  3. Kathy @ SMART Living 365.comAugust 22, 2014 at 4:03 PM

    Hi Joy! What's the saying, "Use everything for your transformation?" It sounds like you've done something just like that. And I like to remember that flowers grow where the cement has cracked.

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    1. Joy Page ManuelAugust 22, 2014 at 4:34 PM

      Oooooohhhhh what wise words once again, Kathy!! Thank you so much! I will remember that! :-D

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  4. Middle-aged Diva (Carol)August 23, 2014 at 5:37 AM

    Flow is a good thing!
    Carol
    http://carolcassara.com/preparing-for-death/

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  5. MurielAugust 23, 2014 at 8:34 AM

    Hate is not that bad, is it? What I find really hard is when I am completely indifferent to something or someone. Use the anger, I say!

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