Hubby and I had a wonderful couples’ evening with my bff and her husband. We watched the film 50/50, starring Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Seth Rogen. This film, having a cancer diagnosis as its main plot, got me wondering mainly about three things:
(1) I wonder how many people I meet everyday (walking, shopping, riding the bus, eating in restaurants…) have been given this diagnosis and are now trying to deal with the news and the disease itself. If I knew what they were going through, would it show on their faces? What look would they have in their eyes? Would it show more of fear, anxiety, questions, anger, sadness or resignation?
(2) I wonder what I would do, what thoughts would initially cross my mind if I were to receive such a diagnosis. I honestly haven’t thought about this and would need to ponder some more.
(3) I wonder what I would do and how exactly I would respond if someone close and dear to me were to reveal that he/she has cancer. I think I dread this more than the second thought above. I have had family members die from cancer but I was either too young to fully understand what was going on or quite distant to truly feel the impact of it all. However I have some vague idea as to the depth of pain and hopelessness this diagnosis creates and it is something I am not sure anyone can really prepare for. I think a big part of the difficulty in battling this disease is precisely because of the sense of hopelessness it creates. To me, there is nothing more defeating, nothing more draining to the human spirit, than the thought that you've run out of options, that there is no other way out or that everything is futile.
I liked the movie a lot. It was funny, smart, touching and felt real. Suffice it to say that it has left me with questions and hypotheticals to reflect on and that generally translates to at least 4 stars in my book!