In this bloggers' group I belong to, the challenge this week is to post/re-post our first ever blog entry. I initially thought mine was from 2006 when I was pregnant with my son, only for me to remember that I had written something else earlier, back in 2005. Friendster used to be the 'in' thing then (prior to getting crushed by Twitter and Facebook...ouch!) and I had created a blog within that site and named it Catharsis. I kept the name but not the blog and decided to have it resurrected via Blogger. Anyway, here it is. My very first 'baby', written on April 18, 2005....
One year old
Most of us just go from one day to the next, taking for granted whatever path we’re on. I, however, know better than to keep doing that. Today, it’s been exactly one year since I came here to
and no one would’ve thought that I’d come here to stay…not even myself! Illinois
I had a comfortable, pretty predictable life in
and then all of a sudden, I’m in a foreign country to stay for good. All of a sudden, I had been stripped of the familiar, of my comfort zone(s). Suddenly, I was the one sticking out, the one who had to learn a new set of rules for functioning in this society. My entire notion of having a taken for granted reality for the sake of some ontological security, (not to mention simple sanity) was suddenly challenged. For a time, I had no identity…no valid I.D., no Social Security Number, no driver’s license…nothing. I was nothing…a non-existent in this foreign land simply because a number had not been assigned to me. Yes, a number. Everyone is ultimately reduced to that. Manila
Anyway, as I was saying, for the longest time I felt invisible. Of course things eventually changed and at present, I am driving, I hold a job and am once again seen as a ‘contributing entity’ to this society. I have been given that "number" and by virtue of receiving such, I have been deemed "worthy". Of what?…I am not exactly sure of…
Well, I am babbling. I don’t exactly know where this is heading but to make the long story short, I just wanted to say this….
Life can change any day. Yes we may find some comfort in the predictable, in staying within our safety zones. But I assure you. There is much growth in store for those who dare to brave the unknown; for those who are willing to shed the familiar. Yes it will hurt for a time. The transition is anything but painless. But you just have to trust that you are where you need to be and that challenges are the ones that do build character.