Tuesday, June 28, 2011

One Year Old

In this bloggers' group I belong to, the challenge this week is to post/re-post our first ever blog entry.  I initially thought mine was from 2006 when I was pregnant with my son, only for me to remember that I had written something else earlier, back in 2005.  Friendster used to be the 'in' thing then (prior to getting crushed by Twitter and Facebook...ouch!) and I had created a blog within that site and named it Catharsis.  I kept the name but not the blog and decided to have it resurrected via Blogger.  Anyway, here it is.  My very first 'baby', written on April 18, 2005....


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One year old


Most of us just go from one day to the next, taking for granted whatever path we’re on.  I, however, know better than to keep doing that.  Today, it’s been exactly one year since I came here to Illinois and no one would’ve thought that I’d come here to stay…not even myself!


I had a comfortable, pretty predictable life in Manila and then all of a sudden, I’m in a foreign country to stay for good.  All of a sudden, I had been stripped of the familiar, of my comfort zone(s).  Suddenly, I was the one sticking out, the one who had to learn a new set of rules for functioning in this society.  My entire notion of having a taken for granted reality for the sake of some ontological security, (not to mention simple sanity) was suddenly challenged.  For a time, I had no identity…no valid I.D., no Social Security Number, no driver’s license…nothing.  I was nothing…a non-existent in this foreign land simply because a number had not been assigned to me.  Yes, a number.  Everyone is ultimately reduced to that.


Anyway, as I was saying, for the longest time I felt invisible.  Of course things eventually changed and at present, I am driving, I hold a job and am once again seen as a ‘contributing entity’ to this society.  I have been given that "number" and by virtue of receiving such, I have been deemed "worthy".  Of what?…I am not exactly sure of…

Well, I am babbling.  I don’t exactly know where this is heading but to make the long story short, I just wanted to say this….

Life can change any day.  Yes we may find some comfort in the predictable, in staying within our safety zones.  But I assure you.  There is much growth in store for those who dare to brave the unknown; for those who are willing to shed the familiar.  Yes it will hurt for a time.  The transition is anything but painless.  But you just have to trust that you are where you need to be and that challenges are the ones that do build character.



36 comments:

  1. Joy what a great post! What did you think of it when you read it again? You have such a great attiude and outlook, I'm learning that that really is the secret to everything, isn't? Things happen to us and it is how we react that really determines how our life turns out. Thanks!!

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  2. Hey Kathy! Thanks for stopping by! What did I think?...Honestly I thought, 'hmmmm...my challenges haven't changed much and I still need to constantly remind myself of the very SAME THINGS 6yrs later'....hahahhahaha! You're right though. Our response to 'realities' defines those realities for us. :-)

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  3. so glad you found blogging Joy.

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  4. Hi! The new voiceboks site is still having some growing pains, we all have been having some problems, it's not you. Lexie is aware and is on it. You do have to re-sign up which is a bit of a pain, and I'm not a real lover of change, but, I'm still happy with the site. I think we all just have to be willing to let all the kinks work themselves out. I have learned so much from the site and have met such great ladies that I'm willing to wait. Also, my followers have really increased, I've added over 100 since joining about 6 weeks ago and they are good followers, leave comments the whole thing. I hope it all works out and I hope to see you around there soon!! Take care!!

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  5. It's great that you were able to save this post! It's like opening a time capsule and discovering how much has changed and how much has stayed the same :-)

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  6. Fun to read your first post. You've acclimated well.

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  7. Janine, Sam and TV: Thanks for your comments. It really was great that I still found the post and fun to see where I was, how it all was. I'm happy to be blogging and to have found great blogging friends like you! It's fun to grow and have fabulous people like you!

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  8. Wonderful post - and yes, this was a good one to have saved, a good one to look back upon.

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  9. Joy, What an incredible post that gave some real insights into who you are. Some words stood out for me, "Stripped of the familiar" "No identity" and "Contributing entity." You gave a moving description of how an immigrant to this country feels. Even one, as in my case, who speaks the language, has ties here, and had also lived here many years ago, can experience all those things. It can take years, if not forever, to truly feel at home here. I'm glad to see that you have adapted well though I'm sure that you still miss Manila.

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  10. Interestingly I started blogging for a similar reason, life can change fast. Hmm... I wonder if I have some old blogs on MySpace that I've completely forgotten about! :)

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  11. Joy that is a great reminder to all of us, that by moving out our comfort zone we are challenging ourselves and growing as a person.
    Its not comfortable, it is painful but ultimately we gain so much.
    Thanks for sharing

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  12. Hello Joy -

    I didn't know that we're neighbors. Small world. I hear you loud and clear that we (humans) are reduced to a number. I've known this since I was in my late teens, meaning I understood that governmental concept clearly.

    On another note, I have just created the plot to a super-duper fabulous new story while I was reading you. My wandering mind is a horrible fault of mine but for those 8-10 seconds that flashed through my head, lol...I like it. I have others things I need to task/process first but.....sooooon I will write it. Hehehe I'm excited about this one. Please remind me to come back and read this post in a week from now. :)

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  13. @ Charlie: You're funny...I thought it was pretty obvious given that on my home page, you see the picture of the Bean (where it says 'migration'). So yes, we are neighbors but will cease being so in less than 2mos...moving to TN, close to Nashville. Anyway, can't wait to read what you're writing now....

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  14. It was a great theme/challenge from PBAU...I like the previous comment that likens it to a time capsule. It's nice to reflect on the path we've chosen now and then. Good read - thanks.

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  15. It was a great theme/challenge from PBAU...I like the previous comment that likens it to a time capsule. It's nice to reflect on the path we've chosen now and then. Good read - thanks.

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  16. Joy, What an incredible post that gave some real insights into who you are. Some words stood out for me, "Stripped of the familiar" "No identity" and "Contributing entity." You gave a moving description of how an immigrant to this country feels. Even one, as in my case, who speaks the language, has ties here, and had also lived here many years ago, can experience all those things. It can take years, if not forever, to truly feel at home here. I'm glad to see that you have adapted well though I'm sure that you still miss Manila.

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  17. Fun to read your first post. You've acclimated well.

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  18. Hi! The new voiceboks site is still having some growing pains, we all have been having some problems, it's not you. Lexie is aware and is on it. You do have to re-sign up which is a bit of a pain, and I'm not a real lover of change, but, I'm still happy with the site. I think we all just have to be willing to let all the kinks work themselves out. I have learned so much from the site and have met such great ladies that I'm willing to wait. Also, my followers have really increased, I've added over 100 since joining about 6 weeks ago and they are good followers, leave comments the whole thing. I hope it all works out and I hope to see you around there soon!! Take care!!

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  19. so glad you found blogging Joy.

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  20. Joy what a great post! What did you think of it when you read it again? You have such a great attiude and outlook, I'm learning that that really is the secret to everything, isn't? Things happen to us and it is how we react that really determines how our life turns out. Thanks!!

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  21. Joy what a great post! What did you think of it when you read it again? You have such a great attiude and outlook, I'm learning that that really is the secret to everything, isn't? Things happen to us and it is how we react that really determines how our life turns out. Thanks!!

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  22. Wonderful post - and yes, this was a good one to have saved, a good one to look back upon.

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  23. It's great that you were able to save this post! It's like opening a time capsule and discovering how much has changed and how much has stayed the same :-)

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  24. Hey Kathy! Thanks for stopping by! What did I think?...Honestly I thought, 'hmmmm...my challenges haven't changed much and I still need to constantly remind myself of the very SAME THINGS 6yrs later'....hahahhahaha! You're right though. Our response to 'realities' defines those realities for us. :-)

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  25. Love this early post, Joy. I often wonder about the strength and courage of someone pulling up their roots and planting them on foreign ground, the fear they have to overcome to survive. You have a great blog and I love your insights.

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  26. First off, loved that you installed Disqus, Joy! This seems to make it so much cleaner and I don't have to subscribe to replies anymore because I'll receive them automatically! Woopee! =) *High five!*

    Second of all! I absolutely loved this insightful first post and hearing about your growth and "accomplishments." That last line is a powerful one and one that I wholeheartedly believe in. I'm currently on the verge of another jump into the unknown as I'm thinking of moving to coastal Peru! Will keep you posted and thanks for the heart. =)

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  27. Seems like your transition had a lovely consequence - your blog and we are loving it! The first post challenge definitely seems amazing. A lot of interesting posts to read and yours is just as interesting!

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  28. Yes this was a great idea, having us look back at our first post! It's so interesting to see how things started, the sort of impetus we each had for blogging and ultimately giving in to our passions! I really have you and Janine to thank!!

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  29. Thanks Samantha! I went back and forth on Disqus. I had it sometime a week ago and then removed it because for some reason, there were a few comments that wont' show up on it. I don't know why. Anyway, I agree it's 'cleaner' and easier for me to reply to comments :-)). Good luck on your possible move although I'm sure it's going to be easier this time....same country at least. Keep us posted okay?

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  30. Thanks Adriene! It means a lot that you say that / think that :-))

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  31. I've just re-installed Disqus and don't know why my previous replies to the earlier comments (to Kathy, Janine, etc) got deleted. Anyway, please know that I appreciate ALL your comments and thoughts :-)) THANK YOU!!!

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  32. I'm a new follower! Come follow me back at www.weidknecht.com! Have a great day!

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  33. Will do! =) Thanks so much, Joy! =)

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  34. Very thought provoking articles. I enjoyed visiting your site! I am stopping by from http://practicalfrugality.blogspot.com/ on the Alexa Hop. I am following via GFC;)

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  35. Stopping by from the Alexa Hop at http://www.ourfamilyworld.com/blog/2011/06/30/alexa-blog-hop/

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  36. Hi! I'm a new follower of your lovely blog.
    Have a nice day!

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